10/30
Love you in my Mind
I wanted to stick with the music of my playlists but change it up just a little. I wanted to look from Daisy’s perspective. As much as this blog has been more centered on the men of the relationships, I think it’s about time that I look into Daisy and how she feels being lost in her own pit of emotions.
During the climax in the book, Gatsby practically begs Daisy to admit that she loves him and him only. She burst into tears with the intense feeling of pressure and the amount of confusion she feels for both men in front of her. She can admit to herself that she loves both men but doesn’t know how to relate that to everyone around her.
So the song.
The speaker of the song says “is it cool if I keep it quiet?/ for the sake of my heart it’s better if I hide it/ cause love is a thing you feel not a thing you say” as the opening line as if to say, I need you to say it’s ok that I don’t vocalize my emotions. The chorus of the song then asks “Can I just love you in my heart, love you in my mind?/ Do I have to find the guts to say it to your eyes?” similarly to how I imagine Daisy feels when she is pleading with Gatsby to be enough for him to let go. And the last line that I think stands out for me as being close to Daisy is when the speaker says “but I have to hold back, I have to resist that/ I haven’t spoken for myself in a while” almost as a way to finally take back control of her own life and make a hard decision that’s best for her and her family regardless of what she might crave from Jay Gatsby.
The scene that I’m referring to might be one of the few instances that I feel bad for Daisy and wish her surroundings weren’t happening for her sake. She is put in a difficult situation where neither man will look at her and ask what she truly wants. It becomes a battle of the men over a woman, and regardless of the era, doesn’t sit right with me when the woman has very little say in the matter. Daisy finally says that she loves her husband too and in the process makes the first major decision for herself.