“Time does not stop”-well at least that’s what I keep telling myself. Can’t dwell on too much about what’s going on in my life. I feel as though I have done a great job at separating my college student self from my personal life. I have an alternate life I live when I walk around on campus than at home away from friends. I stay blended in with my peers and follow the flow of students that crowd the halls of the old smelly buildings. I don’t want to fall behind even when my mental state is completely shattered.
I feel as thought this is what I am supposed to be doing so I can not stop. No matter how much I want to take a mental break I continue to write out blah- blah words on every assignments. It is not my best work but only good enough to meet the requirements. I am a person like everyone else that has a upsetting life but that does not stop the incoming flow of responsibilities. Reaching this stage of life is both realization and an internal foundation that begins to build determination.
So this was what people meant by “enjoy it while it lasts because you will miss it once its gone” and I can say for certain I do indeed miss the happiness that came with being a child. Growing old is not what its cracked up to be and I may just be realizing that sooner than I should be. I will continue to try to keep my college student self separated from my personal life because for one it keeps my mind busy. Dwelling to much on it makes me too upset to stop finishing my mindless assignments.