In honor of Taylor swift releasing her new album Midnights, I decided that I wanted to blog about some of her songs that have had an impact on me. (I’m talking about, altering my brains chemicals, type of impact here). Some I have a lot to say and others I feel like I’ll never be able to put my love for them into words.

  • “You Belong With Me”
    • This is the first song I remember being absolutely obsessed with, so its only right that this list starts with it. I vividly remember sitting in my room, with my little pink mp3 player, playing this song over and over, memorizing all of the words. To this day, whenever I hear this song, suddenly I’m that little girl in her childhood bedroom, screaming about being in love even though she has no clue what that means. I think she’d be happy to know that this song still makes me happy to this day,
  • “Champagne Problems”
    • We all have our champagne problems, I think that thats why this song is so impactful to me. I’ve listened to in in multiple seasons fo my life and each time it means something different to me. You see this one gets me because of how painful the lyrics are. “Soon they’ll have the nerve to deck the halls that we once walked through” and “”She would’ve made such a lovely bride. What a shame she’s ****** in the head, ” they said. But you’ll find the real thing instead. She’ll patch up your tapestry that I shred” makes me wanna scream every time I hear it. The emotional rawness of accepting the fact that we can inflict pain on people who love us and then we just have to move on with our lives matched with still having a love for them and wanting them to live a great life is beautiful and painful and I love and hate it at the same time.
  • “It’s Time To Go”
    • I listened to this song as I drove away from my hometown to move away for college and when I tell ya’ll that it was an emotional one. “The snaps from the same little breaks in your soul. You know when it’s time to go” is so relatable. You can love something to death but it still puts so much weight on you that you can feel yourself aching from it. The whole course about how giving up and running can be the strong and brave option is incredibly validating when it comes to leaving someone, something, or a place that you love. It takes strength to leave, with nothing except for the hope that there is a brighter future waiting for you on the other side.
  • “Cardigan”
    • This song is an emotional rollercoaster. The way Taylor compares herself to an article of clothing that brings a sense of comfort to someone who loves her will always make me feel something. And then the insinuation that that person leaves, “I knew you tried to change the ending, Peter loosing Wendy.” and the pain and anger that follows with being left. I don’t even have the words to describe that. “You drew stars around my scars but now I’m bleeding” is quite literally poetry and keeps me awake at night. All of this ending in that love that left coming back and finding the same comfort that was there before because love doesn’t just completely go away. It lingers like an old cardigan that you forgot about and once you put it on again you feel so much better. This song is beautiful.
  • “Mad Woman”
    • This song is for the girls who feel a little jaded. Like broken glass or a storm that has been kept in a bottle. This song is for the girls who got called crazy. It’s for the girls who notice the little details. The ones who defend their friends because they’ve been in their situation. The ones who won’t let anyone treat them like a doormat ever again. The ones who can’t fit into their old frame that they were forced into.
  • “Mirrorball”
    • I have such a strong emotional attachment to this song. It’s a beautiful song about how we are beautiful because of our brokenness. It’s about how we use that brokenness to bring joy to others. Performing for others in spite of our own pain. The lyrics “I’ve never been a natural all I do is try, try, try.” give me a feeling I can’t quite put into words. In short, it’s me. I’m the mirror ball. But at the end of the day, aren’t we all?
  • “The Archer”
    • This song is for my girlies with imposter syndrome. I love how Taylor acknowledges the duality of heartbreak in this song by calling herself the archer and the prey. Singing about how sometimes we hurt people that love us, but hurting them hurts us too. Neither side of heartbreak is an easy one to be on. And the part of the song where sings about being see through and worrying that the one she loves can see right through makes me scream along in my car every time without fail. We all try and have this facade around us, and when we meet someone who see’s through it, it’s scary.

I have about 20 more songs that I could put on this list, but if I did that we’d be here for weeks. Needless to say, I’m very excited for Taylor’s new album and you can for sure expect a post all about it!

All my love,

-Lexi